I can’t believe the last time I wrote anything here was March 19th.  If there was anyone actually reading my ramblings, they must be long gone by now.  SORRY!!

 Do you ever feel that you have so much to say that you have nothing to say at all?  I don’t even know where to start with what’s been going on the last few weeks.

 Since I last updated, CC has had another dance competition, (2 in 3 weekends), and J has been having lots of baseball practices and scrimmages.  Opening Day is this coming weekend, but I am beginning to wonder if it will take place since the No. Va. area is supposed to get a ton of rain between tonight, and Saturday.  I would be perfectly happy for the game to be rained out, since I will have to miss it.

This coming weekend is the weekend that my husband and I get to escape to an out of town wedding without our kids.  We have really been looking forward to the time away.  As I said in my last post, 24 hours can really make a difference.  We both need to get away and have a change of scenery.  Not too mention, it will be great to focus on something other than the kids’ activities.  The strange part about this weekend is how many activities have been scheduled, and how many will have to be missed for us to be out of town.  I am not sure if anything else could have been added to the calendar that wasn’t already on it…what is it about the first weekend in April?  Here’s the rundown:

wedding out of town, brother and sister-in-law baby shower, opening day baseball game, make-up bowling session, brownie camping trip, dance workshop, choir practice for upcoming performance for both kids, and who knows what else I am forgetting?!

Funny thing is, once I get back, my Tuesday is just as bad…I have had a commitment to host my Bunco group that night (which I have known about since September or October), and J has his second baseball game, and the second I have to miss…which just kills me!  The kids also have dentist appointments that afternoon right after school, which don’t even start until 4:30!!!  I tried to reschedule those appointments (which I signed up for last October), but the earliest appointment after 4pm was not until July!!  Forget it!!  I will just be stressed to get those teeth cleaned, so I can get home to finish prepping for Bunco.  I guess that is the pros and cons of signing up for your next appointment six months in advance.  There usually isn’t anything on the calendar at the time, but boy does that change so quickly.  It’s like the baseball scheduler knows what days I’ll be the busiest, and that’s when J has a game…Does this happen to anyone else?

I also want to say that I often times take my blessed life for granted.  In the grand scheme of things, I live a charmed life.  I can bitch about scheduling conflicts, but in the long run, I have to remind myself that it’s a good problem.  I am so grateful for my health, and for the good health of my children.  For the last few years, I have followed, from afar, many blogs written by parents of children with cancer.  I can’t imagine what I would do if I were in their shoes for even a minute.  These people are some of the strongest and most faithful, and I only hope I can learn from their example to not take one second of one day for granted.  I can honestly say that after reading one of their updates, I come home and hug my children longer than I normally do, and I almost ache for them to get off the bus.  I am so lucky to be the mom of my kids, and I often wonder how I was chosen to be their mom.  What did I do to deserve my two precious gifts?  After my little fits with them tonight (I yelled at each of them for different reasons) I wonder why I continue to be so lucky.  My husband is out of town for the night, and this always seems to happen when he’s away…why is that?  Do the kids act differently when he’s gone, or is it me?  There is always an edge, and I never can explain why.

Sorry this has just taken so many twists and turns.  Like I said earlier, I have so much to say, but nothing to say at all.  Thanks for listening tonight!